She’s my best friend but nobody seems to see her
She started to always be here
Always on my side
She whispers harsh words that crawled under my skin and found their home
She held me tightly in a grip that used to be friendly but now remains unbearable
She controls my every word
She left for a month,
I felt safe,
But she came back.
She came back with someone new.
Someone who decided they liked me much more.
He held my throat more than she did.
He always stayed around
He never left,
I assumed she got jealous and left
She only comes whenever he needs her
She only comes when the night has come and the sun has vanished
He never leaves
He never lets me breath
He won’t let me be me
He controls my every move
I took them to a doctor, a shiny table and a shimmering ceiling
The doctor seemed to know their names
Seemed to be able to see them
I never named them
But they could
He opens his lips and keeps a gentle pause
Anxiety and depression.